Well I totally fell off whatever wagon I was riding the week before and had a very bad weekend. I broke my dates with Jillian (I'm scared she's going to hunt me down and make me do pushups until I weep like a little girl), and I ate everything in sight.
Miraculously, I only gained a pound when I got on the scale yesterday morning. That puts me at 145.6 lbs. I don't know what's wrong with me and why I can't get motivated this time. I've done WW twice in my life when I needed to lose 20-30 lbs, and once I decided I was doing it, I did it and nothing could stop me. This time, I just can't get into that zone and it's frustrating the crap out of me.
So, I'm making a bold move. Something I never thought I would do. I am contemplating attending a real life Weight Watchers meeting in the hopes that it will afford me a greater sense of accountability. I've always done it online, enjoying the anonymity of it and of course loving all the charts and graphs and that kind of thing--this is my definite nerdy side coming through.
I'm not sure why the thought of attending a meeting seems weird. I guess it feels like I'm putting the fact that I can't lose weight out in the open. I'm afraid people will hate me too. I'm not technically overweight, I just want to be thinner and I'm worried that women who are overweight will look at me and think "what is that cow doing here?" I know I would.
There is a lunch time meeting today at 12:15 near my office that I might go to if my workday allows for it. Otherwise, there is another one on Thursday. In the meantime, I've got my charts and graphs to keep me warm.
The truth is, I love the idea of becoming a lifetime member and knowing I’d have to literally pay if I gained weight again after reaching goal. Man I am so cheap…
Wide Open Spaces
3 hours ago
2 comments:
I know with working out, you can't always do the same workout. Otherwise, you'll plateau and then not get as much out of your workouts. Well, I'm sure the same is true with a lot of things, including losing weight. Maybe you just need a change - something to jostle your routine to get you back on track. I think going to the meetings sounds like a great next move.
Isn't it funny that we think about inanimate objects (DVDs, or in my case my Wii) scolding us for missing exercise?!?
I would encourage you to go to the WW meeting. There are a number of people in my meeting who I would NOT consider overweight, but they want to lose an amount to make themselves more comfortable. And that's what it's all about - rather than a # on the scale.
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